Noah (angelbob) wrote,

Brezsny says:

"Why it's always double great to be a Gemini, but especially now. 1. You get to enjoy both the odd pleasure of being your own evil twin and the difficult pleasure of forgiving your evil twin. 2. You're endowed with the ability to have two opinions at the same time, sometimes completely contradictory, thereby imitating God's expansive perspective. 3. You can put yourself into and out of everybody's shoes with such slippery ease that you not only never get bored with yourself, but also have a knack for avoiding other people's hells. (Thanks to Dominique in Toronto for the inspiration.)"

Hmm... Your own evil twin...

When I was in college, there was a fellow I knew well. I understood Jim amazingly well when I first met him, and it took a few years for us to drift apart 'til I couldn't. One day, during one of our drinking sessions, he turned to me and said, "Hey, Apollo!". I turned to him and said, "hey, Bacchus."
I'd thought of him as Bacchus before, and somehow things just meshed. When I later found that Apollo and Bacchus are known, mythologically, as light and dark twins to each other, it just made sense. It was how I thought of the fellow. He was the unconstrained me, the decadent me, the Bacchus (Dionysus? I forget my Greek vs Roman) to my Apollo. We were, in that moment, those archetypes... It was simply how the world worked. He grinned and choked just a little when I said it back to him. The calm, smooth, perfect response was what he seemed to least expect. But that's what it should have been. Of course I responded, perfect and poised, with what he least expected -- I was his anti-twin, the light and knowledge to set off his gloriously decadent mysticism.

If you read Eric Raymond's wilder stuff, he talks about Paganism and channeling Gods, and that the Gods are simply archetypes of human behavior. He talks about Pan, and about music, and about sex. Channeling a God, then, is simply getting in touch with a primal essence of human existence, one of the many.

And you know, until that moment, I wouldn't have said there was a thing to it.

It's a lot harder to be your own darker twin than to have the world project one for you. And yet, I don't think I could go back. I'm not so good at being the Light twin that I want to give up my own Dark leanings just yet...

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