April 20th, 2005

good bad monkey

(no subject)

This week, Rob tells the Gemini:

For one week, try this exercise: Each night before you fall asleep, review the day's activities in your mind's eye. As if watching a movie about yourself, strive to be calmly objective as you observe your memories from the previous 16 hours. Be especially alert for moments when you strayed from your purpose and didn't live up to your highest standards. If you're feeling adventurous, I also recommend that you spend a day doing a review of all of your life's highlights since your last birthday. Pick a time when you have a few hours to spare, lie back and close your eyes, and watch with compassionate gratitude as the amazing plot lines unfold.

This is good advice. <lj-cut text="I can't take it yet". I can now see that I can't take it, and that's a lot of why it's such good advice. I'm *way* too wrapped up in my own point of view on things recently. Several events have slapped me around lately where I've tried to be open-minded or fair or principled rather than, say, asking for what I want or ignoring criticism or going for the gusto. I need to examine these more dispassionately, because there are multiple lessons there. I'm not able to do that right now. I responded well to some of them and badly to some of them, I think. I also have some GroupThink to refute that reinforces some of my own bad habits. There's California GroupThink that is good for me, and more of the same that's bad for me. I need to distinguish better between the two in this specific area, and reading more Ayn Rand doesn't qualify as properly evaluating :-)